Invading Russians!?

This was quite an interesting dream to say the least. It was very lucid and I focused on the details.


I am living in a small village somewhere in Germany. I try to look for a sign or anything but cannot find what town I am in. It is snowing outside and I and many others are hiding in a house. We cannot see out into the streets because there is a very bad blizzard. We listen to a radio but we cannot get anything on it. A soldier rushes in and tells us that the Russians have reached our borders. A lady and her daughter start crying. The whole room feels bad. I want to go outside and see for myself. I am warned not to go out. The soldier becomes distracted so I sneak out the back door.

I look out onto a side street. There is no sign of life. There are a few streetlamps that are still lit but they are dimmed by the heavy snow. My feet are very cold. My shoes are worn and I can see my stockings coming through. I blow into the air and can see my breath.

I walk to the square and look west. All of the lights are out. Everyone has deserted us. We are all alone. One of the soldiers waiting outside comes over and tells me I need to find shelter. To hide. I want to help. He warns me that if I am found I will raped or shot. I know that I will be fine. I try to tell him this but I can't. He wouldn't believe me.

I see a few shops. I look and focus. It is a little bakery shop. I look east and all I see is darkness. All the lights are out. We are alone. The snow is piling up and visibility is poor. How can the Russians find us in this storm? I hear shooting and men shouting. I rush back into the house. The people are huddled in the living room. I shout for them to put the light out and to follow me. I am sure that I can get us to safety. End of dream.

Interpretation: (Spiritual)
This is a past life coming into play with some current situations in my life. I have been in tough spots before and have have found the strength to help not only myself but others. This is when I shine. I get flustered with the dumbest things in life but in emergencies or times of crisis I get very calm and step up to the plate. It is like someone else takes over. This is a strength that I have. I am a very passive person to say the least. Confrontation is not my thing nor is being aggressive. This inner strength I believe is my self tapping into the true being that I am. The timid mouse becomes a defender and fighter for those in trouble. This is not the first time that I have went back to this very same time period of helping others. There have been times where I have helped school children escape from the Nazis. In this lifetime I helped my father to the hospital when he was in a very bad ATV accident. He had broken his jaw and at the time no one could think. My mother was screaming and my little brother was crying. I grabbed some ice. Applied it to his face and wiped his mouth that was bleeding. There was a job to be done. Quickly. I stepped up.

In short, I think this memory or message, is to remind me that I am and always have been strong. Strength is there for me to tap into. Anytime.


~Blessings

Many Dreams And Catching Up

I have been so far behind on blogging. Especially this one. I never realize how much it was helping me to post my dreams. It was allowing me to tap into a special area of my spiritual learning. No need to go into the details. The only excuse is that I have been very busy this summer. I do need to be more faithful in posting my spiritual side of life. The dreams that will be sharing took place in the past three days. On we go.......


Dream#1: Driving Myself
I am driving down a mountain road with many sharp turns. There are two men in the car with me but they are not helping me at all with their back seat driving so I lose control and slide into a guard-rail. I open the door and tell them to get out. They look ashamed for causing me problems. I start the car up and my driving is much better. No weaving and no running off of the road. I am in control of my car. No one else. End of dream.

Interpretation: (Spiritual, Psychological) I am in charge of my own life. I cannot leave it to others to steer my "car" for me. I can learn from others but not at the expense of turning from my own path. Good message. At this point in time I do not have anyone trying to steer me away from myself. But I have had problems with this in the past. as I am sure we all have. Whether it is parents, friends, spouses or whoever, we must accept that this life is ours to live. No one should take that from you.

Dream#2: Dishonor
I am living in a small town in the mountains. I live in a very nice house with my mother and my sister. We are well to do. There is celebration taking place and I search for my ceremony (?) clothes to wear. As I am looking my mother comes in screaming at me. She tells me that I have dishonored my family by losing my child. I feel bad that my child passed away and it made me upset. I started to scream at her that it was not my fault. She told me I was a curse to the family. I screamed back that she was a cruel mother and that if she hated me so much I would leave.

I go for the front door and I see her coming at me with the family sword . I run down the other side of the stairs and I see my sister come running to help me. (There are two exists from the front step of our home. ) I yell that our mother has gone mad. I try to stop my sister but she does not listen. I grab at her again and catch her by the sleeve of her dress. But it is too late. My mother tries to stab me in the back but misses and strikes my little sister. I drag her down the steps screaming in the streets for someone to help us. A man runs over as I hold my sister. she has fainted but to my relief I see that she has sustained a small cut. Nothing fatal. She would be okay. End of dream.

Interpretation: (Past life?) I have no idea where this one came from. I never had any like it ever. I have a younger brother but not a younger sister.

I was Asian in this dream. I think it was in Japan. I could be wrong. I have tried to associate it to something with my current life but I draw a blank. Though I have disappointed my mother in the past I have never been hated by my mother. The woman in this dream was insane with rage. I was more afraid for my younger sister. I am not sure of the time period either. I do not know much of the history of the Asian countries. However, my daughter does. She is absolutely fascinated with Japanese culture. Her dream is to work for and artist there. I support her all the way. I do feel a strong connection to my daughter. She is so very much like me and has shown from an early age of her psychic abilities. I feel like the younger sister in this dream was my daughter. It is possible. I have never regressed to this life before. If it is indeed a past life. Not a nice dream /memory.

Fire, Pregnant and Teaching

Wow! I had no idea that it has been so long since I have posted. Life grabbed me and I had to focus on many other things. It is great to be back. I am looking forward to exploring the astral. Actually due to a lot of stress, a lot of my dreams in the past few months were not so good. But it is time to move forward once again.

Dream# 1: Fire
I am at my ex in-laws . It is night and we are having a get-together. We start to hear what sounds like fireworks going off. We look to the woods which are behind their house and it is completely on fire. The house next door in engulfed in flames. Everyone starts screaming and running for their cars. I watch as embers of fire fall from the sky like a snow storm. As it its I can hear it sizzle. I run to my car and get in hoping that I could leave before the fire melts my tires. End of dream.

Interpretation:(?)This is very interesting. I really and truly get along with my ex in-laws. I can actually call them my friends. This dream had my concerned when I woke up. I called them to see if they were okay. Of course not mentioning the dream. Everything was okay. however, there does seem to be a lot of drama in that family. I mean a lot. That is one thing I do not miss. The fire coming from the sky has got me stumped. I have a block here. It could be some major life changes for that family. A transmutation?

Dream #2: Very Pregnant
I am waiting in a doctor's office. I am at least eight months pregnant. I want to make sure that the baby I am carrying is doing well. I touch my stomach and feel the baby kicking. I can feel the baby moving about in the small area in which in lives. I feel so good to feel this life inside me. I am anxious for it to be born.
The doctor checks me and tells me everything is wonderful and that I shall deliver a very healthy child. The baby kicks again in affirmation to his statement. End of dream.

Interpretation: (Spiritual, Psychological)
Very easy. This is a birth of a new idea coming into my life. I am seriously thinking of getting back into a field of work I have not done in quite awhile. I went to school many ages ago to learn to be a professional cake decorator. I did very good but again big changes came along and I gave it up. Too much to go into. I tried it again when I moved to Las Vegas but that was a horrid negative experience. The casino I worked for was very toxic. The people were abusive to it's employee's so I said goodbye. I refused to be abused or humiliated. I care not about how much money they paid me. I did however love to work for myself. By myself. I flourish by working alone. So..... I have been introducing my talents at various parties I have been to this summer. My husband and I are both in agreement that I should aggressively pursue this.


Dream #3 Teaching
I am in a school. It looks to be a Middle school. I see one of my teachers and he tells me that it is time to meet my students. He points to a stairway and tells me that I will be on the top floor. I walk up a very steep stairs but I have no trouble. I am excited to get to my class. The hallway is all white as well as the floor. But the wood work has intricate patterns. Symbols? I see a teacher and ask him which classroom is mine. He points and tells me that it is at the end of the hall, room 216. I reply that I enjoyed the teacher who had taught me in that room. He was very kind and I learned a lot from him.

I enter my class and though I have only a few students I am very excited to be given the opportunity to teach. I can see that they are excited as well. I walk to my desk and see a very large book. It looks like I will be busy. I also notice that I will be supervised. I can see a figure to the right of me but as I turn to look he disappears. I guess he wants to remain incognito. End of dream.

Interpretation: (Spiritual)
In the astral we are both students and we can also be teachers. A few years back I recall that I was a teacher in an elementary/grade school level. It seems that I have advanced a wee bit. There has been much spiritual growth taking place in my life. I have been working off some karma as well. So it must be in accord with the great changes taking place on this planet. That is another story for another time.
This could mean many things to many different people. Dreams are so very complex as the people/souls who dream them. I have always enjoyed exploring this realm and will continue to do so. I have learned that as we live in these bodies we also as souls continue to work whilst sleeping. I do believe this. Even if we do not recall our dreams, our higher selves will. No time is wasted on this earth or in spiritual realm.

Thank you all that have passed by this way. My hope is to enlighten and encourage each one to seek the unknown and to open up to their full spiritual potential.

~Blessings

Guides and Snake With A Message

SO much has been going on that I will spare my regular readers. I am very much involved in Shamanistic travels for healing. I am at a point where I may need help for me to go deeper. As my original pain or spiritual injury was many lifetimes ago. I am being patient though. Meanwhile, my dreams have become very intense.

Dream#1: Guides

I am in a darkened room. There are candles lit and the glow from them is very soothing. There are two other people with me. We are in a circle. Are backs are against one another. Before us are teachers or guides. They are very evolved souls. They ask each of us in turn , as to what gifts we think we have. The other two rattled off immediately. The teachers surrounding us did nor seem overly surprised nor excited at their answers. I heard someone whisper something about boasting. My turn was next. I felt useless. I wasn't rich. I had no specific talents. I could not carry a tune if I had a bucket to carry it in. I was not a runway model. I was not a professional in the world. No high degree or honors were ever bestowed on me. I felt very humble among these successful souls. I walked up to the teacher and hung my head. I felt so very bad. I was honest in my answer, "I have no gifts. I am nothing. All I have is my love and light to give to others. That is it. I am nothing."

I started to cry. One of the teachers told me to look up and forward. I did so. His face was hidden in the shadows but I could see an arm reach out to grab my hand. He had some sort of glowing golden orb that hovered over my hand. I had no idea what this meant. He whispered in to me from the shadows, "You have a golden gift. Never compare yourself to any other. You have done much to get to this point. You have the gift of............" End of dream.

Interpretation: (Spiritual) ARG!!!! Just as I was being told my gift my cat Miss Tissy woke me up with a screech. She wanted fed and so I bolted right up at the most important time. This dream was an astral travel to be sure. I was there. I felt. Experienced it and was conscious and aware of what was happening. Who were the other two people? Other aspects of myself. I don;t think so. I can usually tell when the other actors are me. I think the teacher/guide was what I needed to focus on. I have been calling out to my guides for assistance. For many different reasons. I am on some serious spiritual quests at this time of my life. A lot changes are taking place. I feel like a snake growing too fast for it's skin.

The element gold does imply that I have an inner treasure that is more worthy then the perceived wealth and success of our societies. I am seeking inner peace as opposed to most who seek outer material stimulants. I am content and grateful for the things I have. I am grateful for my home. It is not worth millions but it means the world to me. We only own one car and it is just a small one that get wonderful gas mileage. I have no desires for fancy overpriced gas guzzlers. I rarely wear makeup and when I do I just add a touch to bring out my natural beauty. I have no idea what the current fashions are or what is the right haircut is for this year. My hair is to my waist. I wash it.Comb it and then either let it hang, braid it or put it up in some sort of bun. That is me. Simple, earthy and not into the modern world too much.

I am a very sensitive, kind and loving soul. In my 40 years on this earth I have found these are not the best qualities that corporations, the business world or the very powerful care to see in a person. Wouldn't it be nice when someday the world would awaken to see all the internal beautiful souls residing in all of us ? Great dream to remind me to honor the beautiful soul within that is absolutely priceless.

Dream#2: Snake With A Message


I am walking on a road that is surrounded by a large body of water. I see water that seems to go on forever but there is always the road appearing before me as I walk. I see no other people around me. Just the miles of water and the road I am on. I kind of like it. I am use to being alone. I look up and see a very bright light above. It is not the sun, I tell myself. I look down at my feet and see that I am kind of hovering just above it. Cool. I think of flying but I don't. I feel that I have to stay on this road.

I come upon a clearing. Instead of water there is now a forest and fields with tall grass. It looks like it is late summer here. It is very pretty. I see in the field a large snake. I walk up the road and stop to watch. A very large cobra comes out onto the path. His hood is open and he dances back and forth in the middle of the road. Just then a large alligator comes and charges at the snake. They begin to fight furiously. I am a bit shocked these two would fight. The Cobra puts up a good fight. I know that the snake will win. It is much wiser. The alligator is pure base emotions. Snake is wisdom. I know this as I watch. Pretty cool. I wonder what else I will see.

I come to a a small hilltop and I look to my left to see a very large orange and red snake (coral snake?) crawling down towards me. Oh shit! I know it is here for me but I still want to run. I see a building to my left and walk to it. I can feel the snake right behind me. I feel drawn to go inside because there is something important in there.

I step inside. It is very bright in here but I adjust and see a man standing before me. I hear a rustling and see that my snake is quite large and coming at me fast. I start to jerk to avoid the snake but the man tells me to stand still and to accept what is coming. I already know. I hold up my right hand and the snake lunges and bites my hand. This snake decides to use teeth, rather then fangs. But it hangs on. It will not let go. I know it is pointless to shake it. When it is time, it will let me go.

I stand there waiting. Will I be swallowed? I close my eyes and then open them again. The snake is still holding on. The man grabs my left hand turns it, palm up.

"What do you see?"

I see what looks like a black orb over my hand. It is hovering.

"Look closer. Tell me what you see. Focus. "

This time I lean in closer and I see stars. Universes. Billions of lights. Energies forming. Stars dying. Starts being born. I feel very light. I feel like falling into the orb. I no longer see the room with the man or the snake. I just let myself go. I want to stay here forever. It is beyond peaceful. The snake lets go and I am pulled back to the room. I am tired. But very excited. There is so much more to learn. There are no limitations. I am going to wake up in but one of many worlds.

End of dream.

Interpretation: (Spiritual) This dream was just beyond awesome. I did not need to write little notes. This stuck with me all day long. No way was my waking mind going to put this on some back burner.

The large bodies of water is my deep subconscious. I notice in my own personal experience that where water is, there is a deep message. Sometimes it is a symbol of my current emotional state. The water in this dream was calm. Peaceful. But a lot of it. Water also indicates spiritual alignment. Tuning into oneself. I wanted to be here. Before going to sleep, I asked for this journey. I just did not realize how deep I would go!

The lonely road is a good representation of me. I am somewhat of a loner but I can be very sociable. I am very comfortable when by myself. I do not need others around to entertain me. I have been like this since I was a child. The spiritual paths I seek are a bit out of the range of modern religious teachings. That's okay with me too. I am cool with them but I seek more.

The snake and alligator is wisdom and ancient base needs at odds. Snake is wisdom and alligator is our base needs such as eating, mating, fighting, killing, etc. The Cobra is a first in my astrals far as type of snake. I sensed a lot of power and force. I needed to stay in this astral and not wake up out of fear.

Each move I made was with conscious thought. This dream was sharp and clear.

Before I move on, snakes have been a common factor in my dreams for a very long time. It was just in the past few years that I accepted snake an one of my animal totems. They show up both in my waking world and dream travels. I have been both bitten and swallowed by them. Over time I learned that this is the gift of ancient wisdom being given to me. I still will not have a snake as a pet but I highly respect them as I do all living creatures. I thought I would mention this for any new readers or those passing by. Snakes are not evil to me. Many cultures other then the western world of course, accept snakes as healers and symbols of wisdom. It is a great honor to have snake choose you. And I am serious in this. I would never have in my life would on purpose choose snake as one of my totems. This is why when I see them I know that a powerful vision or message is coming up. And in this dream, it certainly did.

Entering the building was my acceptance of the message to be given. By entering this place I am also accepting this new information to enter into my life.

The snake I felt was not going to have it any other way. I asked and now the message was to be delivered.

The Master Guide was also the one in my prior dream. I think it was the same person. He made me feel at ease. I knew that he spoke the truth and therefore I was even more perceptive and open to the message.

The message? I am just awed. I really cannot put the experience into the right world or even a defined interpretation. That would be so limiting. I do feel both excited and humbled from the experience. I saw creations and was a part of the creations. As well as everyone else. The stars were a part of me. A part of you. We are the universe. We are eternal and limitless. This is one of those astral travels I will never ever forget.

My Quest and Zombies

I am back . There are many things occurring in my life at this time both in the mundane and the spiritual . As it is with living as soul in a human body there is the quest for balance.

I will do a bit of catch up but try to keep it short. In my absence from this blog, I have been bouncing between many projects. The physical world has been taken up my my gardens, the health issues with my husband's mother, children issues and all the other issues we all face every day.

For my spiritual time I have begun a quest/journey. I am not sure of how many readers are familiar with Shamanism but I am preparing to take the journey to heal and bring back the fragmented parts of my soul that have splintered off due to much trauma. Both in this life and most likely past lives. I thought I had done this already but I haven't. I covered a gaping wound of only the things I thought had traumatized me in this life. But..... in all reality I need to go further back and find those missing parts of myself and integrate them back in. I need to heal myself before I can ascend to the next level. There is much more to this then thinking "positive" or other such psychological theories. This is getting down and dirty to all the things I have done, the soul contracts that I have made, etc. I am one of those you would call a "Seeker". I will always ask questions. As a free-thinker, I will not follow blindly the words of others. I have to test the waters. I have to live the experience. If it does not feel right, I will move on.

I have always been interested in Shamanism. I have a very strong link to animals and I was born with or recall my ability to travel the astral planes easily. But now I need to get more focused and I want to develop the skills I have. When time permits I will still be sharing my dream travels but also my journey to find my wounded self. Where my original wound started. I have a feeling this may take weeks or months. I will not rush this important step. Well that is it for catch up time. I do hope that those who are interested in this blog will check out my past posts. You may get a bit more information as to who I am and what I am all about. One thing can be sure... I am an enigma. Always changing. A puzzle. Aren't we all?

Dream#1: Zombies

I am in a large debilitated building. There are boards with nails lying about, the windows are all broken in and the worse thing of all is that there are zombies attacking the living. They are not eating people but stealing their life force. I do not want to lose my life. I choose to live and with that thought I run into another part of the building. There seems to be an invisible barrier. I thought it was just a partition but it plunges me into this totally dark room. I hear people moaning and shuffling about. They are afraid and cannot find their way out. I can see through the dark to the figures searching for light anything to release them from their prison. The do not see me. A few bounce off of me. I immediately plunge back to where the zombies were.

I realize that the zombies really are not chasing me as I thought. I see a spiral staircase and curious, I start climbing, all the while hoping that the zombies are too dumb to follow. I do not look back at the zombies or the room of lost souls.

I reach what looks to be an attic. There is a young woman waiting there for me. She is very pretty but she looks very sad. She is wearing a Victorian type dress. She reminds me of Rapunzel held as a prisoner. I feel like jumping from this room. I get very scared. She just stands and looks at her feet in sadness. I jump out but as I land on a nearby balcony I change my mind and go back into the room to the sad lady. I ask her who she is and in reply she shows me a full length mirror. End of dream.

Interpretation: (Spiritual/Psychological) I will start at the end of this dream. After thinking this through. I am the girl trapped in the attic. She was me. A clue? Wanting to escape but does not know how. I felt the need to go back and help her. Is she the first step on my quest for my finding the missing pieces. I believe so.

I really do not dream often of zombies. As a matter of fact I am one of those that if I watch a horror movie it will not make me have bad dreams. It has been a very long time since I watched a horror movie. I choose not to let those things enter into my mind anymore.

Monsters, zombies, vampires etc. are parts of ourselves we do not want to face or it can be parts of our lives we do not want to face. In my dream I took a step back and was really not intimidated by them. I did not run from them in fear but out of general annoyance. Fears that I have that may not be real? Thus calling the zombies, "dumb"? Are these supposed fears the things that drains our life's energies? A definite yes!!

The room of dark souls was one of the worse places I have been to. There have been others. The air was thick. The darkness was choking. I call it the room of lost souls because that was the first thing that came to mind. I was in there for probably a micro second. Could this also indicate a place I need to face in order to find my own lost pieces/soul?

The attic is symbolic in that is the upper chakras or reaching for the higher self. The messenger in the dream was myself. The lost and lonely girl waiting to be rescued. Very powerful dream.

Baby Dragon, Bus Driver

I am back. Life has been very busy. Which is good. It creates balance and keeps me properly grounded, especially when doing heavy astral travel. Thank you all that may have checked in now and then to see if I was alive. I am indeed. With the coming of Spring I am outdoors much of the time. I also have been working hard with various activist groups. Anyhoo, I do indeed have many dreams to share. Read on fellow travelers.



Dream #1 Baby Dragon



I am in a small room. It is very cozy and warm. There is a small fire in a fireplace and I see books on a desk. I am sitting at a table and a small baby dragon jumps up and starts to nuzzle at my hand. I start to pet it and it leans in pleasure. His body does not feel like a reptile. It feels more like very coarse hair. Almost like a baby porcupine. I start to rub it in a way in which it does not like and it turns to glare at me and hiss. Thank goodness no smoke or fire. I once more pet him very gently and I notice a small lump at his neck. I am not sure what it is and I pull it off. It looks like a large tick. Yuck! I throw it into the fire and it pops. The baby dragon is very happy now. He is now a pretty blue color and he flies through an open window into a night sky. End of dream.



Interpretation: (Psychological) This has to be a dream speaking loudly with symbolism. I am quite curious as I have no real fascination for dragons. They are quite interesting but I lean toward more air elementals. Fire is one element I am a bit afraid of. It is wild and hard to control.



The cozy room shows that I am in my comfort zone. I am safe here. The little dragon is a new addition or element in my subconscious. I am accepting it into my space so to speak. taking place at night is also important. A clear night sky with stars represents my inner magical realms. This is a great place for the beginning or preparations for re-birth as the ancient Greeks believed.



Now to the little dragon. Since I have not ever dreamt of dragons this is very important to me. A dragon to many beliefs is a very powerful life force symbol. Since my little friend turned blue this is my message to seek and attain my own inner peace. I find this has been getting very easy for me. In spite of all the turmoil in the world I am not absorbing the negativity any longer. Even the drama in my family leaves me on the side with objectivity and feelings of " the world is changing and I am going with the flow." When in public it is much mire easier for me to tune out the negative vibrations and to send out my own peace. Today every deserted aisle I walked down would become full of other shoppers in a matter of minutes. My husband and I call it the "White Light Effect". I feel that these people are in need of my energy and since there is an endless supply of love energy, it can be given freely. I once upon a time had the illusion they were draining me. It is not so.



Far as the little tick on his neck... it could be that I am banishing negative things that would drain my life force. Very good dream.





Dream#2: Bus Driver



I am walking down a street when a woman tells me that they need a bus driver. I see that the roads are very icy and tell her that I think it is a bad idea to drive a bus in such treacherous roads. She doesn't care. I get in the bus and it sputters but I get it started. I start sliding down the road but I stay on it unlike some of the other drivers. I see quite a few cars and trucks stranded on the side. The road becomes a bit less icy but the bus conks out on me. I get behind and start to push it. A man approaches me from the the roadside. He tells me to pull that damn thing off the road.



"This is not the job for you. Do not let others lead you from your path. Stay on your own road and do your own thing. If it feels wrong.. then it is wrong. "



I thank him and see that the road is clear once more.



Interpretation: (Psychological) This is very easy. This man in one of my guides. The less intimidating ones but he is straightforward. Do not goof around and keep doing what I am doing. Do not let others sway me to take on tasks that are not in my vibration. For instance, I have been working on raising my vibrations to a higher level. When I feel like crap or situations pulling me down then I seek to raise them again or remove myself from that influence. Example would be... my husband was watching a movie with a lot of war and death. I felt my energy levels being lowered so I left the room and watched something more positive in my study. It truly works when you become aware of who you are. Good message not just for me but for all of us.

The Theme of Snow

I am back. Many things have been happening. Mostly the mundane taking over. That is a good thing as at this time I need to be more grounded and there are many new things I am learning on this spiritual journey.



I have been dreaming but my sleep has been a bit strange. I seem to need less and less sleep. Also I am gravitating back to vegetarianism. I started to eat fish simply because my doctor thought it was in my best interest for my seizures. He was wrong. I prefer not to eat meat. Again, changes are occurring all around. Not just me but many. I am sure most of the readers reading this can nod in affirmation that times are a changing.



I have also noticed an increase in "activity" in my room again. For those who have no idea what I am talking it is my "otherworldly" room. This room seems to generate very strong and good vibrations. The pets love it. My guests when they visit love it and also there is a tendency to hear strange music and sense the presence of non-human entities. My mother and I have both felt this spirit/energy. Dreaming in this room is awesome. Very vivid. Anyway, last night I went to bed at my typical 12:12. I fall asleep in the living room only to awake at 12:12 and I settle down into the guest room. My husband snores horribly and it is impossible to sleep in the same room so that is why I go to this room. I keep the door closed and it was not more then a minute after tucking myself in when I felt the familiar movement of the covers being rustled. I turned the light on to make sure it wasn't one of my cats that had sneaked in. It wasn't. I told the ghost/spirit that I needed some sleep and to calm down.



I woke up around 2:30 with a sharp pin prick feeling in the center of my chest. I took off my nightgown to see if I had been bitten by a spider. It was a stinging feeling like I had been stung or given a shot. It was slightly red but most likely from me rubbing it. I calmed down and went lack to sleep. Upon rising there was no sign of any marks or redness. It was very unusual.



Okay, as far as the snow dreams, two nights in a row I have had the theme of snow in my dreams. Blocked emotions or releasing of blocked emotions? Read on.



Dream# 1: Ploughing Through The Abyss(This dream took place on Feb. 27th)


I am at a ski resort and there is a cliff nearby. In the middle of the abyss is a strange tall island in the middle rising up like a bizarre beacon. There were a few people trying to reach this beacon but every time they try to get to this beacon they are stopped by a fierce blizzard that rises up and pushes them back to land at the edge of the cliff. I want to get to that place. I start to leap and soon as I do,the blizzard rises up and tries to pull me down into the abyss like an avalanche. I see others struggling also. I use all my force and plow through the strange snow storm and reach the beacon/landing. A few people fall from the beacon into the abyss. A few are hanging precariously at the edge. I look back and see the resort and I see a hidden bridge that the others I realize do not see. I can go back and forth now with no problem. End of dream .



Interpretation: Dreams during the wintertime have always been powerful dreams for me. More forceful whether it be positive or negative. This was a positive message. I showed motivation, fortitude and bravery. I am drawing or moving towards/inward to deeper parts of myself. I want to do this and I am willing to give 100% to get to my destination.



The abyss could be fears of the unknown. I made the leap without a second thought. I am looking forward to a fresh start in my next adventure. I feel that I have a few more unresolved issues though which will appear in the next dream of which I had last night.



Dream #2: The Snow God (Feb. 28th)


I am at my childhood home of which I was first introduced to Christianity at around the age of four.



It is snowing outside. There is little visibility. I am a small child and I am looking for my mother. She does not want me to come into the house and makes me stay out in the storm. I try to find shelter as the snow storms gets stronger and the winds blows the snow higher and higher around me. I hear a sound that is like thunder. A booming sound. The ground shakes and a large ice covered arm appears out if the sky and tries to grab me. I run but the drifts pull me down. I feel that I am going to be punished no matter what I do and I cower waiting to be punished by my mothers God. The hand scoops at the snow and misses. It does not miss a second time and scoops me up and places me where there is no more storms. I am still scared. End of dream.



Interpretation: I understand this one very well. This goes back to my childhood which was not the nicest of childhood's. I really did have to stay outside for hours so as not to bother mother when she was having one of her rages. I his a lot from others when I was a child. Those whom I were to trust were never there for me.



As I wrote at the beginning of this dream I recall being taught the rules and regulations of Christianity. I disliked it from the beginning. IT scared me. A lot. I disliked going to Sunday School and felt out of place. There was so much judgement, anger and pain associated with this God/Jesus stuff. The stories of revenge, murder and God watching over with dark eyes at everything we mere mortals did was enough to frighten anyone. Well not everyone just a very sensitive four year old who already could see and know things she should not be knowing.



I truly was forced into fearing God. I knew this was wrong. Saturday and Sunday nights I would gave horrible dreams about God coming down and punishing just for even questioning this religious stuff. I even had a habit of coming down with the flu every Christmas if I had to speak a part in the Christmas pageant.



i followed or was forced to follow the religion of my mothers choice on and off until my teens. At one time we were attending church everyday. Especially during revivals. Revivals for me were exhausting. Physically and spiritually exhausting. I felt so much pain and fear pouring from the followers of this vengeful judgemental but mind you loving God. I became very depressed and at one point suicidal. At one point I totally rebelled. I had enough. At the age of 14 my mother was cheating on my dad and still thumping the Bible at me. I knew for some time that this was not my personal way to go. I needed something else and this was no longer cutting it for me. It was all wrong for me. Now at this point I must stress if there are any Christians reading this blog, please do not take offense. I think all religions have wonderful lessons but the hating judgemental stuff does not bode well with me and so I choose to learn the Christ's lessons in a different but much more loving and tolerant way.



My main point is that I need to let go those last visages of what God is or isn't. How do we release such deep subconscious fears? My children have been given a choice. My son attends Church on occasion but my daughter is leaning towards Paganism and studying the ways of Wicca. Both are fine with me. That is their choice. It is sad to say but I confess I am more at ease with my daughters choice. Therein lies the proof that I have to let go of my fears and prejudices of my childhood.



I must make note that the hand really was not out to hurt me but to reach out in love to place me where I was meant to be. Only upon meditation did I realize this. The message was I am loved and only fear separates us from the truth.





~Blessings